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After

by hasira · about 6 min read

The next time Kiro saw Susie, nothing terrible happened.

That was almost suspicious.

No panic attack.

No running.

No alcohol.

No gun.

No crying on the floor.

Just Susie standing outside a second-hand shop, looking at her phone.

Kiro approached from behind.

Kiroto Susie

“You look lost.”

Susie didn't look up.

Susieto Kiro

“I'm waiting for someone.”

Kiroto Susie

“Sounds awful.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah. He's late.”

Kiro checked his phone.

Kiroto Susie

“Two minutes.”

Susieto Kiro

“Unacceptable.”

Kiroto Susie

“Go fuck yourself.”

Susie finally looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“Hi.”

Kiro stopped.

Kiroto Susie

“...Hi.”

There it was.

That stupid awkwardness.

They had talked for hours about his ex.

Held paws.

Told each other they liked each other.

And somehow saying hi now felt more intimate than any of that.

Susie seemed to notice too.

She looked away first.

Susieto Kiro

“Come on.”

Kiro followed her inside.

The shop smelled like old fabric and dust.

Susie immediately disappeared toward a rack of jackets.

Kiro followed at a safer distance.

He didn't really know why she had invited him.

Well.

He knew.

She wanted to spend time with him.

That was still something his brain occasionally refused to accept without paperwork.

Susie pulled out a brown jacket.

Held it against herself.

Susieto Kiro

“What do you think?”

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“That fast?”

Kiroto Susie

“Absolutely.”

Susieto Kiro

“Why?”

Kiroto Susie

“You look like somebody's divorced uncle.”

Susie looked at the jacket.

Then at him.

Susieto Kiro

“I'm buying it.”

Kiroto Susie

“Of course you are.”

She put it over her arm.

Kiro shook his head.

Kiroto Susie

“Terrible.”

Susieto Kiro

“You dress like a sheep.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's one sweater.”

Susieto Kiro

“You wear it constantly.”

Kiroto Susie

“It has personality.”

Susieto Kiro

“It has sheep.”

Kiroto Susie

“Exactly.”

Susie smiled.

Kiro did too.

Easy.

Normal.

For a while, they just moved through the shop.

Old records.

Books.

Clothes.

A shelf full of mugs nobody needed.

Kiro picked up one shaped like a frog.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“I didn't say anything.”

Susieto Kiro

“Your face did.”

Kiro turned the mug over.

Kiroto Susie

“He's beautiful.”

Susieto Kiro

“Put him back.”

Kiroto Susie

“He needs a home.”

Susieto Kiro

“You have enough problems.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's cruel.”

Susieto Kiro

“To you or the frog?”

Kiroto Susie

“Both.”

Kiro put it back.

Slowly.

Kiroto Susie

“Goodbye.”

Susie walked away.

Susieto Kiro

“You'll recover.”

Kiroto Susie

“I won't.”

They ended up at the records.

Of course.

Kiro crouched beside one of the lower boxes.

Susie stood beside him, going through another.

Their shoulders bumped once.

Neither commented.

Then again.

Still nothing.

Kiro looked at her.

Susie was focused on an album cover.

He looked away.

Normal.

A few seconds later, her paw brushed his while they both reached for the same record.

Both stopped.

Susie looked at him.

Kiro looked at her.

Neither moved their paw.

For one second.

Two.

Then Kiro slowly pulled his back.

Kiroto Susie

“You can have it.”

Susie looked at the record.

Susieto Kiro

“I don't even want it.”

Kiroto Susie

“Then why did you grab it?”

Susieto Kiro

“You were grabbing it.”

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“That's not an answer.”

Susie put it back.

Kiro narrowed his eyes.

Kiroto Susie

“Suspicious.”

She ignored him.

He kept looking at her.

Susie finally sighed.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“You did that on purpose.”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“You're lying.”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“Your face is doing something.”

Susieto Kiro

“What's my face doing?”

Kiroto Susie

“I don't know.”

Kiro gestured vaguely.

Kiroto Susie

“Something.”

Susie smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“There. That.”

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“That.”

She laughed.

Kiro looked offended.

Kiroto Susie

“I hate this.”

Susieto Kiro

“No, you don't.”

He went quiet.

Susie's smile changed slightly.

Kiro looked down at the records.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

They left with the ugly brown jacket.

And, somehow, the frog mug.

Susie looked at the bag in Kiro's paw.

Susieto Kiro

“I told you no.”

Kiroto Susie

“And yet.”

Susieto Kiro

“You bought it.”

Kiroto Susie

“He deserves better.”

Susieto Kiro

“Than the shop?”

Kiroto Susie

“Than you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fuck you.”

Kiro smiled.

They walked without really deciding where.

Cold afternoon.

Gray sky.

The kind of weather Kiro liked.

Not raining.

Almost.

Their arms brushed sometimes.

Neither moved farther away.

Kiro noticed every single one.

He suspected Susie did too.

Eventually she asked:

Susieto Kiro

“So.”

Kiro immediately looked suspicious.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“Nothing.”

Kiroto Susie

“That was a dangerous 'so.'”

Susie shoved her paws into her jacket pockets.

Susieto Kiro

“Remember Jamie?”

Kiro's stomach reacted before his brain did.

Small.

Sharp.

He hated that.

Susie saw something change in his face.

Not much.

Enough.

Kiro looked away.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She waited.

He breathed out.

Then:

Kiroto Susie

“I'm doing the thing.”

Susieto Kiro

“What thing?”

He rubbed the back of his neck.

Kiroto Susie

“Hello, Susan. You mentioned another man and now my brain is fucking eating itself.”

Susie stopped walking.

Kiro took another step before realizing.

He turned.

She was staring at him.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Then she started laughing.

Kiro's ears flattened.

Kiroto Susie

“You told me to fucking say it.”

Susieto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiroto Susie

“This is humiliating.”

Susieto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiroto Susie

“You're enjoying this.”

Susieto Kiro

“A little.”

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck you.”

Susie caught up.

Kiro looked ahead.

His face was warm.

But something strange happened.

The feeling didn't grow.

He'd said it.

Out loud.

That was it.

No checking.

No running.

No claws in his palms.

Just embarrassment.

Susie bumped his shoulder lightly.

Susieto Kiro

“For the record, I'm not going anywhere with Jamie.”

Kiro glanced at her.

Kiroto Susie

“Okay.”

Susieto Kiro

“He told me about a concert.”

Kiro's ears lifted slightly.

Kiroto Susie

“The one you were talking about at the café?”

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Small venue.

Local band.

Cheap tickets.

Something Jamie had apparently mentioned before everything went wrong.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“I was thinking about going.”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“Sounds fun.”

A pause.

Susie kept walking.

Kiro kept walking.

Then she added:

Susieto Kiro

“With you.”

His steps slowed.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susie looked over.

Susieto Kiro

“I want you to come with me.”

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“Why?”

Her expression changed.

Susieto Kiro

“Why do you always ask that?”

Kiroto Susie

“I don't.”

Susieto Kiro

“You do.”

Kiroto Susie

“No I...”

He stopped.

He did.

Susie looked forward again.

Susieto Kiro

“Because I want you there.”

Simple.

No explanation.

Kiro went quiet.

He looked down at the bag with the frog mug.

Then at her.

Kiroto Susie

“I've never been to one.”

Susie turned her head.

Susieto Kiro

“A concert?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“Never?”

Kiro sighed.

Kiroto Susie

“Please don't do the never-never thing.”

Susieto Kiro

“I wasn't.”

Kiroto Susie

“You were about.”

Susieto Kiro

“Maybe.”

Kiro smiled faintly.

Kiroto Susie

“I always wanted to.”

The smile disappeared a little.

Kiroto Susie

“Just never really had anyone to go with.”

Susie watched him.

Kiro immediately regretted how sad that sounded.

Kiroto Susie

“That sounded fucking pathetic.”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“It did.”

Susieto Kiro

“It didn't.”

Kiroto Susie

“It absolutely did.”

Susie rolled her eyes.

Then:

Susieto Kiro

“Well.”

Kiro looked at her.

Susieto Kiro

“You do now.”

He stopped walking.

Not deliberately.

His body just forgot the next step.

Susie took two more before noticing.

She turned.

Kiro was staring at her.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“Nothing.”

Susieto Kiro

“That's clearly something.”

He looked away.

Kiroto Susie

“Shut up.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“So that's a yes?”

Kiro rubbed one paw against the shopping bag.

Crowd.

Noise.

New place.

People he didn't know.

His chest tightened slightly just thinking about it.

Then he looked at Susie.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She raised an eyebrow.

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah?”

Kiroto Susie

“Before I change my mind.”

Susieto Kiro

“Good.”

Kiro started walking again.

Susie joined him.

After a few steps, their paws brushed.

Once.

Then again.

Kiro looked down.

Susie did too.

Neither said anything.

A few more steps.

Their paws touched again.

This time Susie's little finger caught around his.

Barely.

Kiro froze for half a second.

Susie kept walking.

So he did too.

One finger became two.

Then their paws settled together properly.

No conversation.

No question.

Kiro looked straight ahead.

His ears were burning.

Susie squeezed his paw once.

Kiro squeezed back.

They kept walking.

Eventually Kiro looked toward her.

Kiroto Susie

“So, how are we getting there?”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“I'll pick you up.”

Kiroto Susie

“You drive?”

She looked offended.

Susieto Kiro

“Yes.”

Kiro stared at her.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“Nothing.”

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“I just suddenly became concerned about the concert.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fuck you.”

Kiro smiled.

Susie didn't let go of his paw.

Neither did he.

✶end of chapter 24✶
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