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Gift

by hasira · about 12 min read

Warm air immediately replaced the cold.

So did noise.

Not a lot.

Enough.

Someone was talking in the kitchen.

A television played somewhere farther inside.

There were decorations along the hallway. Cheap orange lights. Paper bats. A plastic spider hanging from the ceiling badly enough that one leg kept falling down.

Kiro looked around.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro, Rin

“It's not a party.”

Rin walked ahead of them.

Rinto Susie

“There are people.”

Susieto Rin

“Four.”

Rinto Susie

“That's a party.”

Susieto Rin

“Four people isn't a party.”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“Depends who they are.”

Susieto Kiro, Rin

“My dad. My aunt. Her boyfriend. And now you two.”

Rin stopped.

Rinto Susie

“Six.”

Susie stared at him.

Susieto Rin

“Thank you, calculator.”

Rinto Susie

“You're welcome.”

Kiro stayed near the door slightly too long.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You can take your jacket off.”

Kiroto Susie

“Oh.”

Right.

Kiro put the gift carefully on a small cabinet.

Then removed his jacket.

He almost hung it over a chair.

Stopped.

Looked around.

Susie pointed toward the hooks beside the door.

Susieto Kiro

“There.”

Kiroto Susie

“I knew that.”

Susieto Kiro

“Sure.”

Kiro hung it up.

Then immediately looked back at the present.

Still there.

Obviously.

Rin had already disappeared farther into the house.

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Susie

“Did he just leave us?”

Susieto Kiro

“Probably looking for food.”

Kiroto Susie

“Of course.”

From the kitchen:

Rinto Kiro, Susie

“I HEARD THAT.”

Kiro looked toward the doorway.

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Come on.”

She started walking.

Kiro grabbed the album again and followed.

He had been inside this house before.

Yesterday.

It shouldn't have felt different.

It did.

Yesterday had been quiet.

Just Susie going upstairs to get her cameras.

A few minutes.

Nothing expected from him.

Now there were coats near the entrance.

Glasses on the table.

Food in the kitchen.

People.

Family.

Kiro's body noticed all of it.

His tail stayed closer to his legs.

Susie slowed slightly when she noticed he wasn't beside her anymore.

Susieto Kiro

“You okay?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She looked at the present against his chest.

Susieto Kiro

“You're doing that again.”

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“Holding it like somebody's going to steal it.”

Kiro looked down.

His claws were pressing lightly into the paper.

He relaxed them.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm fine.”

Susieto Kiro

“Okay.”

That was all.

No argument.

She continued walking.

Kiro appreciated that.

The living room was warm.

A few candles burned inside small pumpkin holders.

Someone had put a paper skeleton on the wall.

Its head was upside down.

Kiro stared at it.

Susie followed his eyes.

Susieto Kiro

“My dad.”

Kiroto Susie

“Artistic.”

Susieto Kiro

“He refused help.”

Kiroto Susie

“I respect that.”

Then a man stepped out of the kitchen carrying a bowl.

Kiro knew immediately.

Susie's father.

He had seen him in photographs.

Older badger.

Similar face.

Same muted eyes, though his were more gray than green.

He looked at Susie first.

Then Rin.

Then Kiro.

Kiro's entire body straightened automatically.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro, this is my dad.”

Her father put the bowl down.

Martinto Kiro

“So you're Kiro.”

Kiro's stomach dropped.

What did she tell him?

He looked at Susie.

She looked completely innocent.

That was suspicious.

Kiro turned back.

Kiroto Martin

“Hi.”

Her father held out a paw.

Kiro took it.

Martinto Kiro

“Martin.”

Kiroto Martin

“Kiro.”

Martinto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiro glanced at Susie again.

She smiled.

His ears lowered.

Martin noticed the wrapped rectangle in Kiro's other arm.

Martinto Kiro

“You brought something.”

Kiro looked down.

Kiroto Martin

“Yeah.”

Then immediately.

Kiroto Susie

“It's nothing huge.”

Susie sighed.

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“You haven't even given it to me yet.”

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

Martin looked between them.

Then toward Susie.

Martinto Susie

“This the nervous one?”

Kiro froze.

Susie's face changed.

Susieto Martin

“Dad.”

Martin stopped.

Kiro stared.

Rin appeared from the kitchen holding something in his mouth.

He looked at Kiro.

Then Martin.

Then slowly removed the food.

Rin

“Oh no.”

Martin frowned.

Martinto Rin

“What?”

Susie covered her face.

Susieto Martin

“I said he gets nervous sometimes.”

Martin looked back at Kiro.

Kiro was still standing completely still.

Martinto Kiro

“Oh.”

A pause.

Martinto Kiro

“Sorry.”

Kiro blinked.

Then laughed once.

Small.

Kiroto Martin

“It's fine.”

Susie looked at him.

Kiro pointed at her.

Kiroto Susie

“You talk about me?”

She lowered her paws.

Susieto Kiro

“Sometimes.”

Kiroto Susie

“Why?”

Susieto Kiro

“Because people ask what I've been doing.”

Rin leaned against the doorway.

Rinto Kiro

“Careful, Kiro. This is how social interaction works.”

Kiroto Rin

“Nobody asked you.”

Rin took another bite.

Martin watched them.

Then smiled slightly.

Martinto everyone

“Food's in the kitchen.”

Rin immediately disappeared again.

Kiro started after him.

Kiroto Rin

“Unbelievable.”

Martin followed.

Susie stayed.

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“You called me nervous?”

Susieto Kiro

“Would you prefer emotionally stable?”

Kiro stared.

Susie's mouth twitched.

He almost smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Come on.”

The gathering really was small.

Susie's aunt talked a lot.

Her boyfriend talked even more.

Neither seemed especially interested in interrogating Kiro, which helped.

They said hello.

Asked how they knew Susie.

Kiro answered:

Kiroto Susie Aunt

“Rin.”

Then Susie added:

Susieto Kiro, Susie Aunt

“Technically.”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“What does technically mean?”

Susieto Kiro

“You met me because of Rin.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's what I said.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Her aunt smiled in a way Kiro didn't like.

Not cruel.

Just knowing.

Kiro immediately looked away.

No.

Nobody said anything.

Good.

He sat near the end of the couch.

Susie sat on the floor near the coffee table.

Rin had somehow gotten the better chair despite not living there.

Kiro noticed.

Kiroto Rin

“Why are you sitting there?”

Rin looked around.

Rinto Kiro

“Because I got here first.”

Kiroto Rin

“You came in after me.”

Rinto Kiro

“Moved faster.”

Kiroto Rin

“Asshole.”

Susie's aunt laughed.

Kiro stopped.

Looked at her.

She smiled.

Susie Auntto Kiro, Rin

“Sorry. You two sound married.”

Kiro nearly inhaled his drink.

Rin looked disgusted.

Rinto Susie Aunt

“No.”

Kiro coughed.

Kiroto Susie Aunt

“Absolutely fucking not.”

Susie laughed so hard she had to put her glass down.

Rin pointed toward Kiro.

Rinto Kiro

“I'd rather die.”

Kiro wiped his mouth.

Kiroto Rin

“Mutual.”

Martin walked through carrying plates.

Martinto everyone

“What happened?”

Susieto Martin

“Nothing.”

Rin looked at Kiro.

Rinto Martin

“We're getting divorced.”

Kiroto Rin

“Fuck you.”

That made Susie laugh again.

Kiro looked at her.

Her paper crown had shifted even farther to one side.

He smiled before he could stop himself.

She caught it.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“Your crown.”

Susie touched it.

Susieto Kiro

“What about it?”

Kiroto Susie

“It's barely on your head.”

Susieto Kiro

“Good.”

Kiroto Susie

“It looks stupid.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's my birthday.”

Kiroto Susie

“Doesn't make it less stupid.”

Susie adjusted even worse on purpose.

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“Now you're doing that to annoy me.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yes.”

Kiroto Susie

“Great.”

He looked away.

Still smiling.

Food made everything easier.

It gave Kiro something to do with his paws.

Something to look at when conversation moved somewhere he didn't understand.

Susie's aunt told a story about Susie getting drunk at nineteen and throwing up into somebody's decorative plant.

Susie covered her face.

Susieto Susie Aunt

“Can we not?”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie Aunt

“No, continue.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Her aunt was delighted.

Susie Auntto everyone

“It wasn't even a real plant.”

Susie groaned.

Susieto Susie Aunt

“That somehow makes it worse.”

Rin leaned forward.

Rinto Susie

“Did you clean it?”

Susieto Rin

“I thought I did.”

Martin looked at her.

Martinto Susie

“You put it in the bathtub.”

Kiro stared.

Susie slowly lowered her paws.

Susieto everyone

“I was drunk.”

Kiro started laughing.

Susie pointed at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You don't get to judge me.”

Kiroto Susie

“I absolutely do.”

Susieto Kiro

“You climbed onto a roof during a thunderstorm.”

Kiro stopped laughing.

Rin looked between them.

Rinto Kiro

“What?”

Kiro slowly turned toward Susie.

Kiroto Susie

“You didn't need to share that.”

She smiled.

Martin looked at Kiro.

Martinto Kiro

“You did that?”

Kiroto Martin

“It wasn't...”

Kiro paused.

He remembered the lightning.

The wet roof.

Kiroto everyone

“...one of my best decisions.”

Rin stared at him.

Rinto Kiro

“When?”

Kiroto Rin

“Different story.”

Rinto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Rin

“Not now.”

Susie's aunt laughed.

Kiro looked around the room.

Nobody looked angry.

Nobody was shouting.

Nobody was drunk enough to change the air.

Nobody seemed to be waiting for someone else to become dangerous.

Just stupid stories.

Food.

Cheap decorations.

Rin stealing snacks from Susie's plate when she wasn't looking.

Martin noticing and moving the entire bowl away from him.

It should have felt normal.

Instead it felt unfamiliar.

That was worse in a different way.

Kiro looked down at his paws.

For a second, another table tried to appear.

Bottle.

Smoke.

Someone speaking too loudly.

The feeling came first.

That old warning inside his chest.

Something is about to happen.

Kiro pressed his thumb against his palm.

The room stayed where it was.

Susie pushed something onto his plate.

Kiro blinked.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“You haven't eaten that.”

He looked down.

A small piece of cake.

Kiroto Susie

“I didn't ask for cake.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's my birthday.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's not how that works.”

Susieto Kiro

“It is in this house.”

Kiro looked at her.

The old table disappeared completely.

Kiroto Susie

“Fine.”

He took a bite.

Susie watched him.

Susieto Kiro

“Well?”

Kiro chewed.

Swallowed.

Kiroto Susie

“Terrible.”

Martin called from the kitchen:

Martinto Kiro

“I MADE THAT.”

Kiro's ears shot up.

Susie burst out laughing.

Kiro stared toward the kitchen.

Kiroto Martin

“I WAS JOKING.”

Martin appeared in the doorway.

Martinto Kiro

“Too late.”

Kiro looked genuinely horrified.

Susie could barely breathe.

Rin leaned toward him.

Rinto Kiro

“Great first impression.”

Kiroto Rin

“Shut the fuck up.”

Martin smiled.

Kiro noticed.

Kiro

“Oh.”

He'd been joking too.

Kiro slowly relaxed.

Kiro

“...Okay.”

Susie wiped at her eye.

Susieto Kiro

“Your face.”

Kiroto everyone

“I hate all of you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Happy birthday to me.”

The gifts came later.

That was the part Kiro had been trying not to think about.

Martin went first.

The little black bag Kiro had seen in Susie's room.

Orange tissue paper.

Plastic bat.

Susie looked at her father.

Susieto Martin

“You didn't even move it.”

Martinto Susie

“You weren't supposed to look.”

Susieto Martin

“It was on my desk.”

Martinto Susie

“I hid it.”

Susieto Martin

“You put it directly in the middle of my desk.”

Martin thought about that.

Martinto Susie

“Badly, apparently.”

Inside was an old camera strap.

Leather.

Worn but restored.

Susie's expression changed immediately.

Susieto Martin

“Oh.”

Kiro watched her run her thumb along the edge.

Martin shrugged.

Martinto Susie

“Thought yours looked like it was about to snap.”

Susieto Martin

“It is.”

Martinto Susie

“So.”

Susie looked up.

Susieto Martin

“Thanks.”

Simple.

But softer.

Kiro looked away.

It felt private somehow.

Her aunt gave her a sweater and a gift card.

The boyfriend gave her a bottle of something Kiro didn't recognize.

Rin went next.

He placed the open gift bag directly into Susie's lap.

She looked inside.

Then at him.

Susieto Rin

“Did you eat some of this?”

Rin didn't hesitate.

Rinto Susie

“No.”

Kiro looked at him.

Susie looked at Kiro.

Kiro tried to stay neutral.

He failed immediately.

Susie's eyes narrowed.

Susieto Kiro, Rin

“You both did.”

Kiro pointed at Rin.

Kiroto Susie

“He started it.”

Susieto Kiro

“You accepted.”

Kiroto Rin

“You offered it!”

Rin shrugged.

Rinto Susie

“Peer pressure.”

Susie looked inside.

Old horror DVD.

Snacks.

The badly wrapped dinosaur thing.

She pulled it out.

Susieto Rin

“What the fuck?”

Rin smiled.

Rinto Susie

“Open it.”

She tore the paper.

Inside was a small metal keychain.

A camera.

Cheap.

A little scratched.

But detailed enough that the lens actually moved.

Susie turned it between her fingers.

Her expression softened.

Susieto Rin

“Okay.”

Rin raised an eyebrow.

Rinto Susie

“Okay good or okay shit?”

Susieto Rin

“Okay good.”

Rinto Susie

“Nice.”

She attached it to the zipper of her camera bag.

Immediately.

Rin tried not to look pleased.

Kiro noticed anyway.

Then everyone looked at him.

Not literally everyone at first.

But it felt like it.

Kiro's stomach tightened.

His present was beside his leg.

Susie looked at it.

Then at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You don't have to look terrified.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm not.”

Rin snored.

Kiro glared.

Then picked up the album.

Held it out.

Kiroto Susie

“Here.”

Susie took it.

The wrapping paper made a quiet sound beneath her paws.

She looked at the bats.

Then at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You picked this?”

Kiro looked offended.

Kiroto Susie

“Rin did.”

Rinto Kiro

“Hey.”

Kiroto Rin

“It looks fucking stupid.”

Rinto Kiro

“You bought it.”

Kiroto Rin

“Because you said it was fine.”

Rinto Kiro

“It is fine.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro, Rin

“I like bats.”

Rin pointed at Kiro.

Rinto Kiro

“See?”

Kiroto Rin

“Nobody asked.”

Susie started opening it.

Carefully.

Too carefully.

Kiro watched every movement.

Don't rip the paper.

Then immediately.

Why the fuck do you care about the paper?

She pulled one piece free.

Then another.

The dark album appeared beneath it.

Susie stopped.

Kiro's heartbeat changed.

Just slightly.

She looked at the cover.

Then opened it.

First page.

Empty.

Second.

Empty.

She turned another.

Then looked at Kiro.

He couldn't read her face.

That was horrible.

Kiroto Susie

“An album.”

Obviously.

Susie's mouth moved slightly.

Susieto Kiro

“I can see that.”

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

Kiro rubbed his thumb against his sleeve.

Kiroto Susie

“You've got all those photos.”

She looked back down.

Kiroto Susie

“And boxes.”

Another page.

Kiroto Susie

“And the wall is...”

He paused.

Kiroto Susie

“Kind of losing.”

Susie laughed quietly.

Susieto Kiro

“Fair.”

Kiroto Susie

“So...”

Kiro swallowed.

Kiroto Susie

“You can put things in this.”

Great explanation.

He wanted to disappear.

Rinto Kiro

“That's generally what albums are for.”

Kiro didn't look at him.

Kiroto Rin

“Please die.”

Susie kept turning the empty pages.

Slowly.

Kiro watched.

Every page brought her closer to the middle.

His stomach tightened.

Fuck.

He hadn't expected her to flip through the whole thing now.

Of course she would.

It was empty.

What else was she supposed to do?

Susie turned another page.

Then another.

Kiro knew roughly where the photograph was.

Not exactly.

That somehow made it worse.

He could feel his heartbeat in his throat now.

Rin noticed.

His eyes moved from Kiro to the album.

Then back.

Suspicious.

Kiro immediately gave him a look.

Rin's eyebrow lifted.

Don't.

Rin's mouth slowly started smiling.

Kiro hated him.

Susie turned another page.

Nothing.

Then she stopped.

Kiro stopped breathing.

A white edge was visible between the black pages.

Susie frowned slightly.

Her fingers caught it.

She pulled the Polaroid free.

Silence.

Kiro stared at the floor.

Fuck.

Susie looked at the picture.

Him beside the railway tracks.

Not posing.

One ear turned toward her.

Caught somewhere between annoyed and amused.

The photo she had taken.

She looked at Kiro.

He still wasn't looking at her.

Rin leaned forward slightly.

Rin

“Oh.”

Kiro wanted to kill him.

Susie looked back at the photo.

Susieto Kiro

“You put it here?”

Kiro finally looked up.

Kiroto Susie

“It's your photo.”

Susieto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiroto Susie

“You took it.”

Susieto Kiro

“I remember.”

Kiroto Susie

“So...”

He gestured vaguely.

Kiroto Susie

“It made sense.”

Susie watched him.

Kiro's ears lowered.

Kiroto Susie

“It doesn't have to stay here.”

Her expression changed.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“If it's weird.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's your album. You can take it out.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susie held the Polaroid between two fingers.

Susieto Kiro

“I like it.”

He stopped.

Kiroto Susie

“Oh.”

She looked at it again.

Then at one of the empty pages near the middle.

Susieto Kiro

“Do you have...”

She paused.

Susieto Kiro

“Anything to stick these in with?”

Kiro blinked.

Kiroto Susie

“At home.”

Susieto Kiro

“Of course you do.”

Kiroto Susie

“I work with records. We have archival shit.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“You're such a fucking nerd.”

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck you.”

She slid the Polaroid carefully back where she'd found it.

Same place.

Then closed the album.

Kiro noticed.

Kiroto Susie

“You don't want to move it?”

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“Why?”

She shrugged.

Susieto Kiro

“You put it there.”

Something moved strangely inside his chest.

Warm.

Immediate.

Dangerous.

Don't.

Kiro ignored it.

Susie rested the album against her legs.

Susieto Kiro

“Thank you.”

He looked at her.

Not at the gift.

Her.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

His voice became quieter.

Kiroto Susie

“Happy birthday.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Thanks old man.”

Kiro's expression immediately died.

Kiroto Susie

“Three fucking months.”

Rin laughed.

The room moved on.

Someone asked about coffee.

Martin started collecting plates.

Susie's aunt wanted another piece of cake.

Rin tried to steal more candy and got his paw slapped away.

Normal noise returned.

Kiro sat back.

For the first time all day, there was nothing left to prepare for.

Nothing left to rehearse.

Nothing left to give.

Susie placed the album beside her.

Carefully.

The Polaroid stayed inside.

Somewhere in the middle.

Exactly where Kiro had left it.

✶end of chapter 17✶
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