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by hasira · about 11 min read

The drive home after the gas station was almost completely silent.

Not awkward.

Neither of them had enough energy left for awkward.

The concert had destroyed their ears.

The terrible hot dogs had barely counted as food.

And the kiss...

Kiro wasn't thinking about that.

He was absolutely thinking about that.

He sat in the passenger seat with his head against the window.

Every few minutes his eyes moved toward Susie.

Then away.

Susie did the same.

Neither mentioned it.

At some point Kiro noticed the Ranger drifting slowly toward the line.

His ears lifted.

Kiroto Susie

“Susie.”

Susieto Kiro

“Mhm.”

Her eyes looked heavy.

Very heavy.

Kiroto Susie

“How tired are you?”

Susieto Kiro

“I'm fine.”

The truck moved slightly again.

Kiro stared at her.

Kiroto Susie

“That's my line.”

Susieto Kiro

“I'm fine.”

Kiroto Susie

“You almost fell asleep.”

Susieto Kiro

“I blinked.”

Kiroto Susie

“For half a fucking century.”

Susie rubbed one eye.

Susieto Kiro

“I'm almost there.”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

She glanced at him.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“My house is closer.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro...”

Kiroto Susie

“You're staying.”

Susie raised an eyebrow.

He pointed toward the road.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm not letting you drive farther like this.”

Susieto Kiro

“I've driven tired before.”

Kiroto Susie

“Congratulations, that's stupid.”

Susie stared at him.

Kiro crossed his arms.

Kiroto Susie

“Stay at mine.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“You can leave tomorrow.”

Susie's expression softened slightly.

Susieto Kiro

“Okay.”

Kiro blinked.

That had been easier than expected.

Kiroto Susie

“...Okay.”

They barely made it to the couch.

Kiro kicked his shoes off.

Susie dropped her jacket over a chair.

Neither even discussed sleeping arrangements.

Kiro sat down.

Susie sat beside him.

Kiro leaned back.

His eyes closed.

Kiroto Susie

“Give me like...”

Nothing.

Susie looked toward him.

Kiro was already sleeping.

Completely.

Head tilted against the couch.

Red plaid shirt wrinkled.

Mouth slightly open.

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Impressive.”

She pulled the blanket from the back of the couch.

Covered him.

Then sat back down.

Her own eyes closed.

Maybe a minute later, her head rested against his shoulder.

Neither moved again until morning.

Kiro woke first.

Sunlight.

Neck hurting.

Again.

Kiro

“Of course.”

Susie was asleep against him.

One paw resting loosely near his side.

Kiro looked at her.

Then remembered the night before.

Concert.

Holding paws.

Gas station.

Nice couple.

Susie standing close.

Her eyes closing.

Her lips against his.

Kiro's face immediately became hot.

Kiro

“Oh, fuck.”

Susie moved slightly.

Kiro froze.

She didn't wake.

He stared straight ahead.

Be normal.

A pause.

You kissed her.

His ears heated.

She kissed you.

Kiro

“Worse.”

She opened one eye.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“...Morning.”

She closed her eye again.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Fair.”

They eventually managed breakfast.

Actually breakfast this time.

Kiro made sure of it.

Susie sat at the kitchen table with messy hair, drinking water and looking like she had personally declared war on consciousness.

Kiro watched her.

Kiroto Susie

“I have an idea.”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“You don't even know what it is.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's morning.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's almost noon.”

Susieto Kiro

“Morning.”

Kiro leaned against the counter.

Kiroto Susie

“You have plans today?”

Susie looked suspicious.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“Good.”

Susieto Kiro

“Why?”

Kiro smiled slightly.

Kiroto Susie

“I want to take you somewhere.”

That woke her up a little.

Susieto Kiro

“Where?”

Kiroto Susie

“Somewhere.”

Susieto Kiro

“Very specific.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's supposed to be a surprise.”

Susie looked at him.

Kiro looked unusually pleased with himself.

That made her even more suspicious.

Susieto Kiro

“How far?”

Kiroto Susie

“A while.”

Susieto Kiro

“Walking?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susie slowly lowered her glass.

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

He smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“You don't even know what I'm asking.”

Kiroto Susie

“I do.”

She stared at him.

Kiro glanced through the window toward the Ranger.

Susie followed his eyes.

Then looked back at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You want to drive my truck.”

Kiro rubbed the back of his neck.

Kiroto Susie

“Can I?”

Susie stared.

A long time.

Then:

Susieto Kiro

“Do you have a driver's license?”

Kiro's expression became slightly guilty.

Kiroto Susie

“Not really.”

Susieto Kiro

“Not really?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“I don't.”

Susie leaned back.

Susieto Kiro

“Then how the fuck are you planning to drive?”

Kiro hesitated.

Kiroto Susie

“I've driven before.”

Susieto Kiro

“A car?”

Kiroto Susie

“...No.”

Susie covered her face.

Susieto Kiro

“Oh my god.”

Kiroto Susie

“Listen.”

Susieto Kiro

“I'm listening.”

Kiro rubbed his palms against his jeans.

Kiroto Susie

“When I was little, my dad taught me how to drive a tractor.”

Susie lowered her paws.

That answer clearly wasn't what she'd expected.

Kiro looked down.

Kiroto Susie

“Like... really little.”

Susieto Kiro

“How little?”

Kiroto Susie

“I don't know.”

He shrugged.

Kiroto Susie

“Small enough that I probably shouldn't have been driving a fucking tractor.”

Susie stared.

Kiro gave a small smile.

Kiroto Susie

“I liked it.”

That smile faded almost immediately.

Kiroto Susie

“Back then.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“It was one of the few things with him that...”

Kiro stopped.

Susie waited.

Kiroto Susie

“It wasn't bad.”

His eyes moved somewhere else.

Kiroto Susie

“He'd sit there and tell me what to do.”

Kiroto Susie

“Sometimes he'd let me steer.”

Kiroto Susie

“Later I did more.”

Kiro rubbed his thumb against his palm.

Kiroto Susie

“I remember liking the machine.”

Kiroto Susie

“Not really everything around it.”

Susie nodded slowly.

Kiro looked toward the truck again.

Kiroto Susie

“I haven't driven anything in years.”

Susieto Kiro

“Cars aren't tractors.”

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

Susieto Kiro

“Your confidence worries me.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's mostly fake.”

Susieto Kiro

“That worries me more.”

Kiro laughed.

Then became serious again.

Kiroto Susie

“I remember how it works.”

Kiroto Susie

“Mostly.”

Susie stared.

Susieto Kiro

“Mostly.”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'll go slow.”

He stepped closer to the table.

Kiroto Susie

“We'd only be on normal roads for a little bit.”

Kiroto Susie

“Then it's mostly forest roads.”

Susieto Kiro

“That's somehow not better.”

Kiroto Susie

“It is.”

Kiroto Susie

“They're empty.”

Susieto Kiro

“They're also trees.”

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“I noticed those.”

Susie stayed unconvinced.

Kiro looked at her.

Really looked.

Kiroto Susie

“I want to show you this place.”

Her expression changed slightly.

Kiroto Susie

“I haven't been in there in...”

He thought.

Kiroto Susie

“Years.”

Kiroto Susie

“Maybe longer.”

Kiroto Susie

“I barely remember the way.”

Susieto Kiro

“Excellent.”

Kiroto Susie

“But I remember the place.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“And I know you'll like it.”

Susie looked toward the window.

At her Ranger.

Then back at Kiro.

Susieto Kiro

“You really want to do this.”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She hesitated.

Kiro's expression softened.

Kiroto Susie

“You can say no.”

Susie stayed quiet.

Then Kiro asked:

Kiroto Susie

“Do you trust me?”

That didn't make the decision easier.

Susie exhaled.

Susieto Kiro

“Unfortunately.”

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“That's a yes?”

Susieto Kiro

“If I tell you to stop, you stop.”

Kiroto Susie

“Immediately.”

Susieto Kiro

“If I think you're doing something stupid, we're switching.”

Kiroto Susie

“Okay.”

Susieto Kiro

“And if you crush my truck...”

Kiroto Susie

“I'll die before you can kill me.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“Okay. Sorry.”

Susie stood.

She pointed at him.

Susieto Kiro

“Slow.”

Kiroto Susie

“Slow.”

Susieto Kiro

“Very slow.”

Kiroto Susie

“Painfully.”

Susie grabbed her keys.

Susieto Kiro

“I already regret this.”

Kiro held out his paw.

She dropped the keys into it.

His smile disappeared for a second.

The weight of them suddenly made everything real.

Kiro

“Okay.”

The driver's seat felt wrong.

That was the first problem.

Kiro sat behind the wheel.

Adjusted himself.

Looked at everything.

Wheel.

Mirrors.

Pedals.

Gearshift.

Susie sat beside him.

Watching.

Kiro took a deep breath.

Then another.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro

“You sure?”

He looked at her.

She wasn't teasing anymore.

Actually worried.

Kiro breathed out slowly.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“Just give me a second.”

Susie nodded.

Kiro put both paws on the wheel.

Susie noticed.

For a moment, he wasn't twenty-five.

Something larger surrounded him.

Old metal.

Diesel smell.

His father's voice beside him.

Kiro’s fatherrememberedto Kiro

“Slowly.”

Kiro's paws tightened.

Then he blinked.

Ford Ranger.

Susie.

Morning.

Not then.

Now.

Kiro

“Okay.”

He started the engine.

Nothing exploded.

Kiro smiled slightly.

Kiroto Susie

“Good start.”

Susie stared at him.

Susieto Kiro

“Please focus.”

Kiroto Susie

“Right.”

He looked over everything again.

For a few seconds, the controls felt unfamiliar.

Then something old returned.

Not perfectly.

Enough.

Kiro checked the mirrors.

Then checked them again.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro

“Nervous?”

Kiroto Susie

“Terrified.”

Susieto Kiro

“Good.”

Kiroto Susie

“Why good?”

Susieto Kiro

“Means you're not stupid enough to think you're good at this.”

Kiroto Susie

“Comforting.”

Kiro slowly backed the Ranger out.

He checked behind him.

Then one mirror.

Then the other.

The truck moved carefully.

Painfully carefully.

Susie watched everything.

Kiro straightened the wheel.

Stopped.

Breathed.

Then moved forward.

The neighborhood was almost empty.

Late enough that most people had already gone to work.

Early enough that the roads still felt quiet.

Kiro drove like every mailbox was waiting to jump in front of him.

Susie eventually relaxed slightly.

Slightly.

Susieto Kiro

“You know you can go faster than fifteen.”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“You said slow.”

Susieto Kiro

“I didn't mean funeral procession.”

Kiroto Susie

“You should've specified.”

He made another turn.

Carefully.

Susie watched him.

Susieto Kiro

“You actually remember.”

Kiro glanced at her.

Kiroto Susie

“I told you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Look at the road.”

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck.”

He looked forward immediately.

Susie laughed.

Kiro smiled.

A few streets later, they reached the edge of town.

Kiro's shoulders had started loosening.

The movements felt less foreign.

Still careful.

Still thinking about everything.

But less like operating alien machinery.

Then he turned off the paved road.

Susie looked ahead.

Forest.

A narrow dirt path disappeared between the trees.

She looked at Kiro.

Susieto Kiro

“This is where you murder me.”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

He shifted slightly in his seat.

Kiroto Susie

“Whole thing was very elaborate.”

Kiroto Susie

“Concert.”

Kiroto Susie

“Hot dogs.”

Kiroto Susie

“First kiss.”

Kiroto Susie

“All part of the plan.”

Susie stared.

Kiro nodded seriously.

Kiroto Susie

“Now I murder us both on a tree.”

Susieto Kiro

“Us?”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm inexperienced.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fantastic.”

The Ranger bounced over the first rough section.

Susie grabbed the handle above the door.

Kiro laughed.

Kiroto Susie

“Trust.”

Susieto Kiro

“Shut up.”

The road got worse.

Mud dried into deep lines.

Loose stones.

Roots.

Potholes that looked old enough to have names.

Kiro slowed again.

The Ranger rocked from side to side.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“Maybe don't destroy my suspension.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm trying.”

Susieto Kiro

“You picked this road.”

Kiroto Susie

“I didn't build it.”

Susieto Kiro

“Convenient.”

The trees became thicker.

No houses.

No other cars.

No signs except occasional faded markers Kiro barely remembered.

He kept looking ahead.

Thinking.

Was it left here?

A fork appeared.

Kiro slowed.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro

“Lost?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“You look lost.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm remembering.”

Susieto Kiro

“That means lost.”

Kiro looked left.

Then right.

Something about one path felt familiar.

A crooked tree.

Old wooden post.

Kiro pointed.

Kiroto Susie

“That way.”

Susieto Kiro

“Confident?”

Kiroto Susie

“Sixty percent.”

Susie stared.

Kiro turned left.

Kiroto Susie

“That's above half.”

Susieto Kiro

“Wonderful.”

After another few minutes, the path became smoother.

Kiro relaxed enough to press a little more.

Not fast.

Just faster than crawling.

He changed gears.

The Ranger moved through the forest.

Sunlight flashed between branches.

Susie watched the trees.

Then Kiro.

He was smiling.

Not nervously.

Actually smiling.

Susieto Kiro

“You like driving.”

Kiro's expression changed slightly.

Kiroto Susie

“I used to.”

Susieto Kiro

“With your dad.”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“That's weird.”

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiro kept his eyes ahead.

Kiroto Susie

“Remembering something with him and not immediately hating it.”

Susie stayed quiet.

Kiro rubbed one thumb against the steering wheel.

Kiroto Susie

“I liked tractors.”

He smiled faintly.

Kiroto Susie

“Big fucking machines.”

Susieto Kiro

“Very subtle.”

Kiroto Susie

“I was a child.”

Susieto Kiro

“Children famously hate big machines.”

Kiroto Susie

“Exactly.”

His expression softened.

Kiroto Susie

“I'd forgotten that part.”

Susie looked at him.

Kiro didn't say anything else.

Didn't need to.

The Ranger hit another bump.

Both bounced.

Kiro

“Fuck.”

Susie grabbed the handle again.

Kiro laughed.

Kiroto Susie

“Still trust me?”

Susieto Kiro

“Less every minute.”

Kiroto Susie

“Good.”

He took one paw briefly away from the wheel.

Held it above the center console.

Palm open.

Susie looked at it.

Then at him.

Kiro kept his eyes forward.

Kiroto Susie

“Do you trust me?”

Susie stared at his waiting paw.

Same place hers had been on the drive to the concert.

She smiled.

Then put her paw into his.

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiro's fingers closed around hers.

For only a moment.

Warm.

Firm.

Then he let go and put his paw back where it belonged.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“Responsible.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm growing.”

Susieto Kiro

“Terrifying.”

Kiro smiled.

The road narrowed again.

Branches scraped lightly along the sides of the Ranger.

Susie winced every time.

Kiroto Susie

“Relax.”

Susieto Kiro

“That's my paint.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's character.”

Susieto Kiro

“I already have character.”

Kiroto Susie

“Your truck does.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fuck you.”

Kiro laughed.

Then suddenly slowed.

Susie looked ahead.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiro stared through the windshield.

Something had appeared between the trees.

Old wood.

Tall.

He smiled.

Kiro

“Oh.”

Susieto Kiro

“You found it?”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

He looked almost surprised.

Kiroto Susie

“I actually fucking found it.”

The road opened into a small clearing.

Beyond it, through the trees, water.

A lake.

Still.

Dark.

Reflecting the pale sky.

And near the edge of the clearing stood an old watchtower.

Wood and metal.

Tall enough to rise above the trees.

Weathered.

Clearly old.

But not destroyed.

Someone still cared for it.

The path around was clear.

Some boards looked newer than others.

No broken windows.

No graffiti covering everything.

Just quiet.

Susie stared through the windshield.

Kiro parked.

Turned off the engine.

Silence filled the truck.

Real silence.

No traffic.

No music.

Only wind moving through the trees.

Susie slowly looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You knew this was there?”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“I came here once.”

Susieto Kiro

“Once?”

Kiroto Susie

“A long time ago.”

He looked toward the tower.

Kiroto Susie

“I wasn't even sure it still existed.”

Susie's eyes moved toward the lake.

Then the tower.

Then the forest.

Kiro watched her reaction carefully.

Kiroto Susie

“Well?”

Susie opened the door.

Kiro frowned.

Susieto Kiro

“That's not an answer.”

She got out.

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“Get out of the truck.”

He smiled.

Cold forest air hit him.

Different from town.

Cleaner.

Wet earth.

Leaves.

Lake water.

Kiro closed the driver's door.

Susie was already walking toward the tower.

He followed.

Kiroto Susie

“You like it?”

Susieto Kiro

“Are you fucking serious?”

Kiro smiled wider.

Kiroto Susie

“I'll take that as yes.”

Susie looked up.

The tower disappeared into the branches above them.

Susieto Kiro

“You brought me to an abandoned watchtower beside a lake.”

Kiroto Susie

“Technically it's maintained.”

Susieto Kiro

“By who?”

Kiroto Susie

“No idea.”

Susieto Kiro

“That's reassuring.”

Kiro walked beside her.

Kiroto Susie

“I knew you'd like it.”

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“How?”

Kiro shrugged.

Kiroto Susie

“You like old things.”

Kiroto Susie

“Photography.”

Kiroto Susie

“Forests.”

Kiroto Susie

“Places nobody else gives a shit about.”

Susie raised an eyebrow.

Susieto Kiro

“Was that supposed to be romantic?”

Kiro stopped.

His ears warmed.

Kiroto Susie

“I...”

Susie smiled.

Kiro looked away.

Kiroto Susie

“Shut up.”

She laughed.

Then she reached for his paw.

This time Kiro didn't hesitate.

Their fingers settled together.

Susie looked toward the tower again.

Susieto Kiro

“So.”

Kiro followed her eyes.

Kiroto Susie

“So?”

Susieto Kiro

“We climbing that?”

Kiro stared upward.

A lot of stairs.

Very old stairs.

He considered his life choices.

Then smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Obviously.”

Susie squeezed his paw.

They walked toward it together.

✶end of chapter 28✶
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