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by hasira · about 10 min read

Kiro woke up before his alarm.

He stared at the ceiling.

5:48 AM.

His alarm was set for seven.

Kiro

“...Fuck.”

He closed his eyes again.

Nothing.

His brain had apparently decided this was enough sleep.

Kiro rolled onto his side.

Then his other side.

Pulled the blanket higher.

Lower.

Checked the time.

5:51 AM.

Kiro

“Seriously?”

He looked toward you.

You weren't doing anything.

Kiroto Reader

“Don't.”

Kiro got out of bed.

His first shift back started at 9:00 AM.

Kiro was dressed by 7:15 AM.

He stood in front of the hallway mirror.

Sheep sweater.

Jeans.

Hair fixed.

Then fixed again.

Sleeves sitting properly.

He pulled one down slightly.

Stopped.

Pulled it back.

Kiro

“...Normal.”

The fox in the mirror looked tired.

But not horrible.

Not like a month ago.

Kiro knew that.

His stomach didn't.

He grabbed his keys.

Forgot his phone.

Went back.

Grabbed his phone.

Forgot his wallet.

Went back again.

By the third time he reached the door, he stood there with one paw on the handle.

The house was quiet behind him.

The record shop was waiting somewhere ahead.

Same counter.

Same shelves.

Same bell above the door.

Same owner.

Same customers.

Nothing had changed.

That was somehow terrifying.

What if you have?

Kiro's paw tightened around the handle.

Kiro

“What if I haven't?”

Silence.

He opened the door.

Cold air hit his face.

Kiro

“Good talk.”

Kiro arrived at 8:12 AM.

He stared through the dark shop window.

CLOSED.

Obviously.

He had forty-eight minutes.

Kiro

“...Great.”

He could go get coffee.

Walk around.

Sit somewhere.

Act like a normal person who hadn't shown up almost an hour early because staying home felt worse.

Instead, Kiro unlocked the door.

The little bell rang.

The sound hit him harder than expected.

He stopped inside.

Dust.

Cardboard.

Old paper.

Coffee.

The faint smell of wood from the shelves.

Exactly the same.

Kiro closed the door carefully behind him.

The shop was dark except for gray morning light coming through the front window.

He didn't turn the lights on yet.

For a while, he just stood there.

Something in his chest loosened.

Then tightened again.

He walked behind the counter.

His paw touched the edge.

Familiar scratches beneath his fingers.

The register.

The turntable.

A stack of records somebody had left in the wrong place.

Kiro frowned.

Kiro

“Who the fuck did this?”

He immediately started fixing them.

By 8:20 AM, he'd recognized one section.

By 8:30 AM, he'd cleaned the counter.

At 8:37 AM, he was wiping dust from something that had absolutely already been clean.

The back door opened.

Kiro froze.

The owner walked out carrying a mug.

He stopped.

Looked at Kiro.

Then at the clock.

Then back at Kiro.

Rowanto Kiro

“You're early.”

Kiro kept holding the cloth.

Kiroto Rowan

“Little.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Forty minutes.”

Kiroto Rowan

“Traffic was good.”

Rowanto Kiro

“You walk here.”

Kiro stared at him.

The owner took a drink.

Rowanto Kiro

“Good traffic?”

Kiro slowly put the cloth down.

Kiroto Rowan

“...Yeah.”

The owner nodded.

Rowanto Kiro

“Right.”

Kiro looked toward the shelves.

For some reason he suddenly felt like he had been caught doing something wrong.

Kiroto Rowan

“I can go outside until nine.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Why?”

Kiroto Rowan

“I don't know.”

Rowanto Kiro

“No.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Then don't.”

Kiro stayed where he was.

The owner walked behind the counter.

Opened a drawer.

Looked inside.

Closed it again.

Normal.

No speech.

No dramatic welcome back.

Kiro had expected one.

He hadn't realized that until there wasn't one.

Finally the owner looked at him.

Rowanto Kiro

“You okay?”

There it was.

Kiro's stomach tightened.

Kiroto Rowan

“Yeah.”

Too fast.

The owner stared at him.

Kiro sighed.

Kiroto Rowan

“I'm here.”

Rowanto Kiro

“I noticed.”

Kiroto Rowan

“That's what you asked.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Not really.”

Kiro rubbed one thumb against his sleeve.

Kiroto Rowan

“I'm...”

He looked around.

Kiroto Rowan

“Better.”

The word felt strange.

Not good.

Not fixed.

Better.

The owner nodded.

Rowanto Kiro

“Good.”

Kiro waited.

Nothing else came.

No questions about what happened during the month.

No asking whether Kiro had seen somebody.

No careful voice.

No list of things he should or shouldn't do.

Kiro frowned slightly.

Kiroto Rowan

“That's it?”

The owner looked confused.

Rowanto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Rowan

“Nothing.”

The owner understood anyway.

Rowanto Kiro

“I'm not your mother, Kiro.”

Kiroto Rowan

“Thank fuck.”

Rowanto Kiro

“I'm also not stupid.”

Kiro glanced back.

Rowanto Kiro

“If you start looking like you're dying behind my counter again, I'm sending you home.”

Kiro's ears lowered.

Kiroto Rowan

“I didn't look like I was dying.”

Rowanto Kiro

“You fell asleep standing up.”

Kiroto Rowan

“Once.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Twice.”

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Rowan

“Second time doesn't count.”

Rowanto Kiro

“You were holding a record.”

Kiroto Rowan

“I didn't drop it.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Very impressive.”

Kiro almost smiled.

The owner took another drink.

Rowanto Kiro

“You're not here to prove anything.”

Kiro's smile disappeared.

His eyes went toward the counter.

Kiroto Rowan

“I know.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Do you?”

Kiro didn't answer.

The owner sighed.

Rowanto Kiro

“Just work.”

Kiro looked at him.

Kiroto Rowan

“That's the plan.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Good.”

A pause.

Rowanto Kiro

“And stop cleaning things that are already clean.”

Kiro looked down at the cloth.

Kiroto Rowan

“...Fuck off.”

The owner walked toward the back room.

Rowanto Kiro

“Welcome back.”

Kiro stood there.

The words landed quietly.

No music.

No big moment.

Just that.

Welcome back.

Kiro looked toward you.

His ears lowered.

Kiroto Reader

“Don't.”

Then he turned the lights on.

At nine, Kiro flipped the sign.

OPEN.

Nothing happened.

He stood behind the counter.

Waited.

9:03 AM.

Nothing.

9:07 AM.

Nothing.

Kiro started wondering if the universe had arranged for nobody to enter specifically because it knew today mattered.

At 9:11 AM, the bell rang.

Kiro's entire body went stiff.

A man walked in.

Tourist.

Definitely.

Camera hanging from his neck.

Map folded badly inside one jacket pocket.

The man smiled.

Touristto Kiro

“Morning.”

Kiro opened his mouth.

For half a second, nothing came out.

His heart hit once.

Hard.

The man had already turned toward the records.

He hadn't noticed.

Kiro swallowed.

Kiroto Tourist

“Morning.”

There.

Normal.

The man wandered through the shop.

Kiro watched him.

Too much.

Stop staring.

Kiro looked down at the counter.

Then immediately back up because what if the customer needed something?

The man pulled one record out.

Looked at it.

Put it back in the wrong section.

Kiro's eye twitched.

Not yet.

Wait.

The customer picked up another.

Then approached the counter.

Touristto Kiro

“I'm looking for something older. Local maybe.”

Kiro stared.

His brain emptied.

Local.

Older.

Music.

Record.

This was literally his job.

The customer waited.

Kiro's paw moved toward his sleeve.

Then stopped.

Kiroto Tourist

“How old?”

The man shrugged.

Touristto Kiro

“Seventies? Eighties?”

Kiroto Tourist

“What do you actually listen to?”

Touristto Kiro

“Mostly rock.”

Kiroto Tourist

“That's not an answer.”

The man blinked.

Kiro froze.

Fuck.

Then the customer laughed.

Touristto Kiro

“Fair.”

Something clicked.

Kiro leaned slightly against the counter.

Kiroto Tourist

“Heavy?”

Touristto Kiro

“Sometimes.”

Kiroto Tourist

“Punk?”

Touristto Kiro

“Not really.”

Kiroto Tourist

“Post-punk?”

The man thought.

Touristto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Tourist

“Okay.”

He walked out from behind the counter.

Three shelves.

Lower crate.

Second section.

His paw went directly to the right place without thinking.

He pulled one record out.

Then another.

Kiroto Tourist

“Try these.”

The man took them.

Looked at the covers.

Touristto Kiro

“This one good?”

Kiro looked.

Made a face.

Kiroto Tourist

“No.”

The man laughed again.

Touristto Kiro

“Then why are you giving it to me?”

Kiroto Tourist

“Because you might like it.”

Touristto Kiro

“But you don't?”

Kiroto Tourist

“I have standards.”

From somewhere in the back room:

Rowanto Tourist

“HE WORKS HERE, BY THE WAY.”

Kiro turned his head.

Kiroto Rowan

“SHUT UP.”

The customer laughed.

Actually laughed.

Kiro looked back at him.

For the first time that morning, his shoulders dropped.

Just a little.

Five minutes later, the man bought both records.

Including the one Kiro insulted.

The bell rang when he left.

Kiro watched the door close.

Then looked down at the money in the register.

Nothing had happened.

No shaking.

No panic.

No forgetting where he was.

He'd just been annoying to a customer.

Professionally.

Kiro smiled.

Small.

The owner appeared behind him.

Rowanto Kiro

“You done having an emotional moment with the register?”

Kiro's smile vanished.

Kiroto Rowan

“I hate you.”

Rowanto Kiro

“Good sale.”

Kiroto Rowan

“Thanks.”

The owner disappeared again.

Kiro looked at the door.

Another person entered.

This time, he didn't freeze.

Kiroto Customer 2

“Morning.”

By noon, his feet hurt.

That felt amazing.

Not emotionally.

His feet genuinely fucking hurt.

But it was normal pain.

Standing too long.

Walking between shelves.

Crouching beside crates.

Reaching too high because nobody had put the ladder back where it belonged.

Normal.

Kiro ate lunch behind the counter.

Sandwich.

Water.

No hot chocolate because the owner had apparently decided that wasn't lunch.

Kiro disagreed.

Strongly.

The bell rang.

Kiro swallowed too quickly.

Coughed.

Kiro

“One second.”

He grabbed the water.

Took a drink.

Looked up.

Susie stood near the entrance.

Camera bag over one shoulder.

Kiro stopped.

She smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Professional.”

Kiro wiped his mouth.

Kiroto Susie

“What are you doing here?”

Susieto Kiro

“Shopping.”

Kiroto Susie

“You don't shop here.”

Susieto Kiro

“I literally have.”

Kiroto Susie

“While it was closed.”

Susieto Kiro

“Still counts.”

Kiro looked toward the back room.

Then back at her.

Something felt strange about Susie being here now.

Last time, the shop had been empty.

Private.

Almost not real.

Just him showing her something he liked.

Now the lights were on.

The OPEN sign was facing outward.

Someone else was browsing near the back.

The register had money in it.

He was working.

Susie looked around.

Susieto Kiro

“You look different.”

Kiro immediately looked down at himself.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

She laughed.

Susieto Kiro

“Not your clothes.”

Kiroto Susie

“Then what?”

Susieto Kiro

“I don't know.”

She watched him for another second.

Susieto Kiro

“Like you belong behind there.”

Kiro went quiet.

His paw rested on the counter.

Familiar scratches beneath his fingers.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

The answer came before he could ruin it.

Susie smiled slightly.

She walked toward one of the crates.

Kiro watched her.

Kiroto Susie

“What are you actually looking for?”

Susieto Kiro

“I told you. Shopping.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's suspicious.”

Susieto Kiro

“Why?”

Kiroto Susie

“Because you don't know what you want.”

Susieto Kiro

“That's why I'm looking.”

Kiro stared.

Susie pulled something out.

Kiro's expression immediately changed.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

She looked at the cover.

Susieto Kiro

“You don't even see what it is.”

Kiroto Susie

“I saw enough.”

Susieto Kiro

“You are impossible.”

Kiroto Susie

“Put it back.”

Susie looked at him.

Then she deliberately held it against her chest.

Susieto Kiro

“I'm buying it.”

Kiro's ears lifted.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yes.”

Kiroto Susie

“I refuse.”

Susieto Kiro

“You can't refuse.”

Kiroto Susie

“I work here.”

Susieto Kiro

“Exactly. Sell me the record.”

Kiroto Susie

“It's shit.”

Susie walked toward the counter.

Kiro shook his head.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm serious.”

Susieto Kiro

“So am I.”

She placed it down.

Kiro stared at it.

Then at her.

Then at the record again.

Kiroto Susie

“That's offensive.”

Susieto Kiro

“How much?”

Kiroto Susie

“Too much.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

He checked the sticker.

Told her.

Susie paid.

Kiro took the money with visible disgust.

Kiroto Susie

“This is the worst thing I've done today.”

Susieto Kiro

“I thought coming back to work would be harder.”

Kiro stopped.

Susie did too.

The sentence had come out casually.

Not cruel.

Still, it touched something.

Kiro looked down at the record.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susie's expression changed slightly.

Susieto Kiro

“Sorry.”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

He rubbed the side of his thumb against the counter.

Kiroto Susie

“It's fine.”

A pause.

Then he looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“It was.”

Susieto Kiro

“Was?”

Kiroto Susie

“This morning.”

Kiro glanced around the shop.

At the shelves.

The register.

Someone flipping through records near the window.

The owner moving around somewhere behind them.

Kiroto Susie

“It felt like...”

He stopped.

Susie waited.

Kiro tried again.

Kiroto Susie

“Like I was coming back to the place where I stopped working properly.”

His eyes stayed on the counter.

Kiroto Susie

“And everyone was going to notice.”

Susieto Kiro

“Did they?”

Kiro looked toward the customer by the window.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Owner?”

Kiroto Susie

“He called me dramatic.”

Susieto Kiro

“Sounds healthy.”

Kiroto Susie

“He also told me to stop cleaning clean things.”

Susie smiled.

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“I sold something.”

Susieto Kiro

“At a shop?”

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Sorry. Continue.”

Kiroto Susie

“I didn't fuck it up.”

Susie's smile softened.

Kiro immediately noticed.

Kiroto Susie

“Don't do that.”

Susieto Kiro

“Do what?”

Kiroto Susie

“That face.”

Susieto Kiro

“What face?”

Kiroto Susie

“The nice one.”

She stared at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You want me to look disgusted?”

Kiroto Susie

“Maybe.”

Susie made a terrible expression.

Kiro started laughing.

Kiroto Susie

“Jesus Christ.”

Susieto Kiro

“Better?”

She picked up her bag.

The awful record went inside.

Kiro watched her.

Kiroto Susie

“You seriously bought that.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiroto Susie

“Why?”

Susie shrugged.

Susieto Kiro

“You hate it.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's not a reason.”

Susieto Kiro

“It made you look normal.”

Kiro stopped.

Susie seemed to realize she'd said it strangely.

Susieto Kiro

“I mean...”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Kiro looked toward the shelves.

Then back at her.

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

A small silence.

Susie adjusted the strap over her shoulder.

Susieto Kiro

“I’ll let you work.”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“Okay.”

She started toward the door.

Something inside him pulled.

Not panic.

Just the old instinct.

Ask when you'll see her.

Make sure.

Don't let the space stay empty.

Kiro opened his mouth.

Stopped.

Susie reached the door.

Then turned.

Susieto Kiro

“Tomorrow?”

Kiro blinked.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“You busy?”

His shoulder relaxed.

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Good.”

She opened the door.

The bell rang.

Susieto Kiro

“See you tomorrow.”

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She left.

Kiro watched her pass the window.

Then disappear.

His chest stayed quiet.

Mostly.

He looked down at the counter.

Another customer approached carrying three records.

Kiro immediately recognized one.

His face twisted.

Kiroto Customer 3

“No.”

The customer stopped.

Customer 3to Kiro

“What?”

Kiro pointed at the record.

Kiroto Customer 3

“That one.”

The customer looked down.

Customer 3to Kiro

“What's wrong with it?”

Kiro stepped out from behind the counter.

Kiroto Customer 3

“Come here.”

He walked toward the shelves.

The customer followed.

Kiro reached into another section and pulled something better.

He held it out.

Kiroto Customer 3

“Take this instead.”

The customer looked at the cover.

Customer 3to Kiro

“Why?”

Kiro smiled slightly.

Kiroto Customer 3

“Trust me.”

Behind him, the bell above the door rang again.

✶end of chapter 32✶
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