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Passenger

by hasira · about 10 min read

Kiro heard the truck before Susie knocked.

Not loud.

Just old enough to sound slightly unhappy about being alive.

He looked through the front window.

Dark green pickup.

Susie behind the wheel.

Kiro stared.

His phone vibrated.

Susiemessageto Kiro

outside

Another message appeared before he could answer.

Susiemessageto Kiro

and yes I can see you

Kiro stepped away from the window immediately

Kiromessageto Susie

creepy

Susiemessageto Kiro

get in the truck

He looked down at himself once.

Red plaid shirt.

Jeans.

No sheep sweater this time.

He'd stood in front of the closet for far too long before deciding on it.

Not because this was a date.

Probably.

Maybe.

He wasn't thinking about that.

Absolutely not.

Kiro grabbed his jacket and left.

Kiro stopped halfway down the driveway.

The truck wasn't ancient.

That almost disappointed him.

Dark green Ford Ranger.

A few scratches along the bed.

Small dent near the rear wheel.

Nothing dramatic.

Just used.

Susie rolled down the passenger window.

Susieto Kiro

“You coming?”

Kiro walked closer.

Kiroto Susie

“This is yours?”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

She rested one arm against the window.

Susieto Kiro

“I saw it outside someone's house and decided it belonged to me.”

Kiroto Susie

“That explains a lot.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's a 2012.”

Kiro opened the passenger door.

Kiroto Susie

“It looks older.”

Susieto Kiro

“You were born before it.”

He stopped.

Susie smiled.

Kiro climbed inside.

Kiroto Susie

“You're becoming very comfortable insulting me.”

Susieto Kiro

“I've always been comfortable insulting you.”

Kiroto Susie

“True.”

He closed the door.

The inside smelled faintly like old fabric, coffee, and Susie.

Camera bag behind his seat.

A green plaid jacket thrown behind hers.

A few CDs stuffed beside the center console.

Receipts.

Two empty water bottles.

Something small hanging from the mirror.

Kiro leaned forward.

It was a tiny white ghost.

Wearing a cowboy hat.

He stared.

Susie noticed.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“What the fuck is that?”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“It has a hat.”

Susieto Kiro

“I can see that.”

Kiroto Susie

“Why does your ghost have a cowboy hat?”

Susie started the truck.

Susieto Kiro

“Because he wanted one.”

Kiro slowly turned toward her.

Kiroto Susie

“He wanted one?”

Susieto Kiro

“Yes.”

Kiroto Susie

“You named him.”

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Susie

“You absolutely fucking named him.”

Susie pulled away from the curb.

Susieto Kiro

“Seatbelt.”

Kiroto Susie

“What's his name?”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's my name.”

Susieto Kiro

“Exactly. Put your seatbelt on.”

Kiro clicked it into place.

Kiroto Susie

“This conversation isn't over.”

Susieto Kiro

“It is.”

The little ghost swung from side to side as they drove.

Kiro stared at it.

Kiroto Susie

“Steve.”

Susie glanced over.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“He looks like a Steve.”

Susieto Kiro

“He doesn't.”

Kiroto Susie

“So he does have a name.”

Susie's eyes narrowed.

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Got you.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fuck off.”

For the first few minutes, Kiro kept looking around.

Not obviously.

Probably obviously.

Susie noticed anyway.

Susieto Kiro

“You inspecting my truck?”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm judging it.”

Susieto Kiro

“And?”

Kiro touched the old radio.

Kiroto Susie

“It has a CD player.”

Susieto Kiro

“Yes.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's a point in its favor.”

Susieto Kiro

“I knew you'd understand.”

Kiro opened the small compartment beside the seat.

Susie immediately looked over.

Susieto Kiro

“Don't.”

Too late.

CDs

A lot of them.

Kiro pulled one out.

Susie reached toward him at the next red light.

Susieto Kiro

“Give me that.”

He moved away.

Kiroto Susie

“Why?”

Susieto Kiro

“Because.”

Kiroto Susie

“You own it.”

Susieto Kiro

“That doesn't mean you're allowed to look.”

Kiroto Susie

“Oh.”

Kiro looked at the cover again.

Kiroto Susie

“So it's embarrassing.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's not embarrassing.”

Kiroto Susie

“It absolutely is now.”

Susieto Kiro

“Kiro.”

He held it against his chest.

Kiroto Susie

“It's mine.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's literally mine.”

Kiroto Susie

“You gave up ownership through shame.”

The light changed.

Someone behind them honked.

Susie looked forward.

Susieto Kiro

“You're lucky I'm driving.”

Kiroto Susie

“I know.”

He put the CD back.

Wrong place.

Susie noticed instantly.

Susieto Kiro

“Wrong slot.”

Kiro stared at her.

Kiroto Susie

“How the fuck did you see that?”

Susieto Kiro

“I know where they go.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's disturbing.”

Susieto Kiro

“Fix it.”

Kiro fixed it.

Then found another.

Kiroto Susie

“This one's good.”

Susieto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiroto Susie

“Finally.”

Susieto Kiro

“Get out.”

Kiroto Susie

“We're doing forty.”

Susieto Kiro

“I'll slow down.”

Kiro smiled and put the CD into the player.

Music filled the truck.

Not loud.

Just enough.

Outside, the evening was getting darker.

Clouds low.

Streetlights turning on.

Kiro watched buildings pass.

Susie tapped her fingers against the steering wheel.

For a while, neither spoke.

Kiro liked that.

Then he remembered where there were going.

His legs started bouncing.

He didn't notice.

Susie did.

Susieto Kiro

“You're doing it.”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

She glanced toward his knee.

He stopped immediately.

Kiro

“Oh.”

Susieto Kiro

“You nervous?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susie waited.

Kiro sighed.

Kiroto Susie

“Yes.”

Susieto Kiro

“Okay.”

That was all.

Kiro looked out the window again.

A few seconds passed.

Kiroto Susie

“How many people?”

Susieto Kiro

“At the venue?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“Maybe a hundred and fifty.”

Kiro slowly turned toward her.

Kiroto Susie

“That's small?”

Susieto Kiro

“For a concert.”

Kiroto Susie

“That's a fucking village.”

Susie laughed.

Susieto Kiro

“You'll be fine.”

Kiro looked at her.

She corrected herself immediately.

Susieto Kiro

“Probably.”

Kiroto Susie

“Much better.”

Susieto Kiro

“If it sucks, we go outside.”

Kiroto Susie

“You don't have to leave because of me.”

Susieto Kiro

“I'm not talking about leaving.”

She changed lanes.

Susieto Kiro

“We step out.”

Susieto Kiro

“You breathe.”

Susieto Kiro

“We go back in if you want.”

Kiroto Susie

“And if I don't?”

Susieto Kiro

“Then we don't.”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“That's it?”

Susieto Kiro

“That's it.”

He stared forward again.

The nervousness stayed.

But it stopped growing.

At another red light, Susie leaned across him.

Kiro froze.

Completely.

Her shoulder brushed against the front of his plaid shirt.

Her face was suddenly very close.

He smelled her shampoo.

Something warm.

Something slightly sweet.

Kiro forgot how breathing worked.

Susie opened the glove box.

Pulled out gum.

Closed it.

Sat back.

Kiro stared straight ahead.

Susie held the pack toward him.

Susieto Kiro

“Want one?”

He slowly looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“You could warn me.”

Susieto Kiro

“About gum?”

Kiroto Susie

“About...”

He gestured vaguely between them.

Susie raised an eyebrow.

Susieto Kiro

“About what?”

Kiro stared.

She knew.

She absolutely fucking knew.

Kiroto Susie

“Nothing.”

Susieto Kiro

“Okay.”

Her mouth twitched.

Kiro took a piece.

The light changed.

Susie started driving again.

His heart remained stupid for another full minute.

Susieto Kiro

“You really never went to one?”

Susie asked eventually.

Kiro looked over.

Kiroto Susie

“A concert?”

Susieto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Not even some tiny local thing?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“Festival?”

Kiroto Susie

“No.”

Susieto Kiro

“School band?”

Kiro stared.

Kiroto Susie

“That does not fucking count.”

Susieto Kiro

“It has live music.”

Kiroto Susie

“By that logic I've been to concerts in grocery stores.”

Susie laughed.

Kiro looked back through the windshield.

Kiroto Susie

“I used to watch recordings sometimes.”

Susieto Kiro

“Of concerts?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

He shrugged.

Kiroto Susie

“They always looked...”

Kiro searched for the word.

Kiroto Susie

“Loud.”

Susie glanced at him.

Susieto Kiro

“That's kind of the point.”

Kiroto Susie

“No, I mean...”

He moved one paw vaguely.

Kiroto Susie

“Different loud.”

Kiroto Susie

“Like everyone is hearing the same thing, but nobody gives a shit what anyone else is doing.”

Susie listened.

Kiro looked slightly embarrassed now.

Kiroto Susie

“I thought that looked nice.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“Being somewhere you don't have to think for a while.”

Susie's expression softened.

Susieto Kiro

“Maybe you'll like it, then.”

Kiro glanced toward her.

Kiroto Susie

“Or I'll have a panic attack in the first ten minutes.”

Susieto Kiro

“Also possible.”

Kiroto Susie

“Thanks.”

Susieto Kiro

“I'm keeping expectations realistic.”

Kiro smiled.

Kiroto Susie

“Good.”

Traffic got heavier closer to downtown.

More people outside.

More lights.

Kiro recognized some band shirts even though he didn't know the bands.

His knee started bouncing again.

This time Susie didn't comment.

At the next stop, something touched it.

Her paw.

Kiro looked down.

Then at her.

Susie was still watching the road.

Susieto Kiro

“You're vibrating.”

Kiro

“Oh.”

Her paw stayed there.

Lightly.

Kiro swallowed.

Kiroto Susie

“Sorry.”

Susieto Kiro

“I didn't tell you to stop.”

His brain went completely blank.

Susie glanced at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You okay?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“You're very still.”

Kiroto Susie

“I'm trying not to embarrass myself.”

Susieto Kiro

“How's that going?”

Kiroto Susie

“Poorly.”

She smiled.

Her paw remained on his knee until traffic started moving again.

Then she returned it to the wheel.

Five seconds.

Maybe six.

Kiro looked out the passenger window.

His knee still felt warm.

Normal.

He swallowed.

Be fucking normal.

Susie turned the music up slightly.

Kiro glanced toward her.

She was smiling to herself.

Kiroto Susie

“What?”

Susieto Kiro

“Nothing.”

Kiroto Susie

“You're smiling.”

Susieto Kiro

“So are you.”

Kiro immediately stopped.

Susie laughed.

Susieto Kiro

“Idiot.”

A few minutes later, Susie reached toward the center console.

Her paw landed there.

Close to Kiro's.

Not touching.

Just close.

Kiro noticed.

Of course he noticed.

He looked at her paw.

Then at the road.

Then back at it.

Don't.

He lasted maybe thirty seconds.

His little finger moved.

Touched hers.

Susie didn't react.

At least not visibly.

Kiro almost moved away.

Then her finger hooked around his.

Barely.

His stomach flipped.

Neither looked at the other.

Not properly.

Just two fingers caught together beside the gear shifter.

Still enough.

Kiro stared out the window.

The city lights blurred slightly against the glass.

He smiled.

Small.

Susie noticed.

Didn't say anything.

They stayed like that until she needed to change gears.

Their paws separated.

Kiro immediately missed it.

That annoyed him.

Susie changed gear.

Then, a moment later, put her paw back.

This time palm up.

Kiro looked down.

Then at her.

She kept watching the road.

He slowly placed his paw into hers.

Susie's fingers closed around it.

Kiro breathed out.

Kiroto Susie

“Is it safe?”

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“Driving like this.”

She glanced at him.

Susieto Kiro

“I have another paw.”

Kiroto Susie

“Very reassuring.”

Susieto Kiro

“If we die, I'll apologize.”

Kiroto Susie

“Great.”

Susie squeezed his paw once.

Kiro squeezed back.

He didn't let go until she actually needed both paws again.

Even that, she put hers back near his afterward.

Kiro noticed that too.

He noticed everything.

They eventually turned onto a narrow street.

Kiro could already see people outside.

Small groups.

Dark clothes.

Someone smoking beside a brick wall.

Music faint through the buildings.

His stomach tightened again.

Susie noticed his expression.

Susieto Kiro

“We're close.”

Kiroto Susie

“I figured.”

Susieto Kiro

“You still want to go?”

Kiro looked toward the people.

Then toward her.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“Sure?”

He nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm scared.”

A pause.

Kiroto Susie

“But yeah.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Good.”

They found parking a few streets away.

Susie killed the engine.

The music stopped.

The truck became suddenly quiet.

The little cowboy ghost swayed once.

Twice.

Stopped.

Kiro looked through the windshield.

People were walking in the same direction.

Some laughing.

Some already clearly drunk.

He glanced down at himself.

Red plaid shirt beneath his open jacket.

For some reason, he'd spent too long choosing it.

Now surrounded by dark band shirts and jackets outside, he wondered if he'd chosen wrong.

Susie caught him looking down.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“Nothing.”

Susieto Kiro

“You're doing the thing.”

Kiroto Susie

“What thing?”

Susieto Kiro

“Thinking too much.”

Kiro looked at his shirt.

Kiroto Susie

“Do I look stupid?”

Susie looked him over.

Actually looked.

Kiro immediately regretted asking.

Her eyes moved from his shirt to his face.

Susieto Kiro

“No.”

A pause.

Susieto Kiro

“The plaid looks good.”

Kiro stared at her.

Kiroto Susie

“Oh.”

Susie looked back through the windshield.

His ears warmed.

He looked down again.

This time for a different reason.

Susie unlocked her seatbelt.

Kiro didn't

She looked toward him.

He noticed.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm thinking.”

Susieto Kiro

“Dangerous.”

Kiroto Susie

“Fuck you.”

Susie leaned back.

She didn't open her door.

Didn't rush him.

Kiro looked down.

His paws were resting in his lap.

One of them still remembered hers.

He breathed in.

Crowd.

Noise.

New place.

No idea what it would feel like.

No idea where anything was.

His chest tightened.

Then he looked at Susie.

She was just sitting there.

Waiting.

Not staring at him like he was fragile.

Just waiting.

Kiro clicked his seatbelt open.

Kiroto Susie

“Okay.”

Susie smiled.

Susieto Kiro

“Okay?”

Kiroto Susie

“Before I change my mind.”

They got out.

Cold air hit Kiro immediately.

He left his jacket open, the red plaid visible underneath.

Susie locked the Ranger.

Kiro looked back at it.

Then at her.

Kiroto Susie

“You know...”

Susie narrowed her eyes.

Susieto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Susie

“It's not terrible.”

Susieto Kiro

“My truck?”

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

She stared at him.

Kiro continued walking.

Kiroto Susie

“Still old.”

Susieto Kiro

“It's fourteen.”

Kiroto Susie

“Ancient.”

Susieto Kiro

“You are twenty-five.”

Kiroto Susie

“Different.”

Susieto Kiro

“How?”

Kiro looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“I have feelings.”

Susie laughed.

Their shoulders bumped as she caught up.

The bass became clearer with every block.

Not just sound anymore.

A faint vibration through the pavement.

Kiro's ears lifted.

He could feel it in his chest.

His nervousness was still there.

But something else was starting to push against it.

Excitement.

Susie looked at him.

Susieto Kiro

“You hear it?”

Kiro nodded.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susieto Kiro

“Still want to go?”

He stared at the dark entrance ahead.

People disappearing through it.

Lights somewhere inside.

Music beneath everything.

Then he looked at her.

Kiroto Susie

“Yeah.”

Susie held out her paw.

Not grabbing him.

Just offering it.

Kiro looked down.

Then placed his paw in hers.

Kiroto Susie

“Don't lose me.”

The words came out before he thought about them.

Susie looked at him.

Kiro immediately regretted how serious they sounded.

He tried to smile.

Kiroto Susie

“I'm expensive.”

Susie squeezed his paw.

Susieto Kiro

“I'll try.”

Kiro squeezed back.

Together, they walked toward the door.

✶end of chapter 25✶
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