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Tomorrow

by hasira · about 9 min read

Kiro left Susie's house later than he meant to.

The sky was already dark.

Not late.

Just autumn.

Streetlights reflected across wet pavement. Leaves stuck to the sidewalk in orange and brown patches, crushed into by shoes and tires.

Kiro walked with his paws inside his sleeves.

His phone was in one pocket.

Two photographs were in the other.

Well.

One photograph he wanted.

One he didn't.

He could feel both of them every few steps.

The Polaroid Susie had taken of him near the railway tracks.

And the older photo.

Susie beside someone who used to matter.

Her ex.

Kiro had promised.

Susierememberedto Kiro

“Throw it somewhere outside.”

Simple.

He passed the first trash bin.

Kept walking.

Three steps later, he stopped.

Looked back.

Kiro

“No.”

He continued.

Another bin appeared near a bus stop.

Kiro slowed.

His paw went into his pocket.

Touched the edge of the photo.

Then came back out.

Kiro

“Fuck.”

He looked at you.

Kiroto Reader

“Don't.”

Nothing.

Kiroto Reader

“She asked me to do it.”

You kept watching.

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Reader

“I'm going to.”

He walked past the bin.

Kiroto Reader

“...Eventually.”

The stupid thing was that it wasn't even his memory.

He didn't know the person in the picture.

Didn't know what happened.

Susie had only said enough.

Susierememberedto Kiro

“He hurt me a lot.”

That was all Kiro needed to know.

Still...

Throwing the photo away felt strangely serious.

Like he wasn't throwing away paper.

Like Susie had handed him a small piece of something she couldn't make herself get rid of.

Kiro reached another street.

Music came quietly from somewhere ahead.

He looked up.

A restaurant.

One of those places trying very hard to look expensive without actually being impossible to enter.

For Halloween, somebody had decorated the entrance with pumpkins, fake black branches and little hanging ghosts.

There were tall outdoor fire torches on both sides of the entrance.

Real flames.

Warm orange light moved across the wet pavement.

Kiro slowed.

Then stopped.

He stared at one of the flames.

Kiro

“...Huh.”

A couple walked past him toward the restaurant.

Kiro moved slightly out of the way.

His paw slipped into his pocket.

He pulled out the photograph.

Susie and the stranger smiled back at him.

He had told her he wouldn't look again.

Technically...

He already had.

Kiro

“Sorry.”

Kiro held the picture by one corner.

For a moment, he imagined turning around.

Putting it back in his pocket.

Maybe throwing it away normally later.

Maybe forgetting.

Maybe keeping it accidentally for a week.

A month.

Something about that felt worse.

Susie had covered it with other memories because she couldn't take it down.

Then eventually she gave it to him because she still didn't trust herself to throw it away.

Kiro looked at the flame.

Then at you.

Kiroto Reader

“Don't make this dramatic.”

Silence.

Kiroto Reader

“I'm throwing away a fucking photograph.”

He stopped closer to the torch.

Held the edge of the photo near the flame.

Paused.

His ears lowered.

Kiroto Reader

“She asked me to.”

The corner caught.

Kiro almost pulled it back instinctively.

Instead, he let go.

The photograph curled quickly.

Orange light moved across Susie's old smile.

Across the stranger beside her.

Black ate through both of them.

Kiro watched until there was almost nothing recognizable left.

Then the remains folded into themselves and disappeared into the flame.

He stood there a few seconds longer.

Kiro

“...Okay.”

Something felt strange.

Not better.

Not worse.

Finished, maybe.

Kiro shoved his paws back into his sleeves.

Then his phone vibrated.

He pulled it out.

Rin.

Rinmessageto Kiro

alive?

Kiro rolled his eyes.

Kiromessageto Rin

yes

The reply came almost immediately.

Rinmessageto Kiro

look at you learning

Kiro started walking again.

Then remembered.

Tomorrow.

He stopped so suddenly somebody behind him nearly walked into him.

Kiroto ???

“Sorry.”

Kiro moved aside.

He stared at Rin's chat.

Then typed.

Kiromessageto Rin

do you know what tomorrow is?

Three dots.

Rinmessageto Kiro

october 31

Kiro waited.

Nothing else.

His eye twitched.

Kiromessageto Rin

anything else

a longer pause.

Rinmessageto Kiro

friday?

Kiro stared at the screen.

Kiro

“...Fucking idiot.”

Kiromessageto Rin

IT'S SUSIE'S BIRTHDAY

Three dots appeared.

Stopped.

Appeared again.

Rinmessageto Kiro

oh fuck

Kiro smiled despite himself.

Then another message Rin appeared.

Rinmessageto Kiro

wait you only just found out too didn't you

Kiro's smile disappeared.

He typed back:

Kiromessageto Rin

not important

Rin replied almost immediately.

Rinmessageto Kiro

HAHA

Kiro stared at the screen.

Kiro

“Asshole.”

Instead of typing again, he pressed the call button.

Rin answered after two rings.

Rinto Kiro

“You fucking hypocrite.”

Kiro kept walking.

Kiroto Rin

“Shut up.”

Rin laughed through the phone.

Rinto Kiro

“You found out like fifteen minutes ago.”

Kiroto Rin

“Maybe.”

Rinto Kiro

“And you're judging me forgetting?”

Kiroto Rin

“Yes.”

Rinto Kiro

“Fuck you.”

Kiro stepped around a puddle.

Kiroto Rin

“I need something.”

Rin went quiet for a second.

Rinto Kiro

“Therapy?”

Kiroto Rin

“Rin.”

Rinto Kiro

“Sorry. What do you need?”

Kiroto Rin

“A gift.”

There was silence.

Then:

Rinto Kiro

“Oh no.”

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Rin

“What?”

Rinto Kiro

“You're doing the thing.”

Kiroto Rin

“What thing?”

Rinto Kiro

“The thing where something normal becomes a fucking military operation.”

Kiroto Rin

“It's her birthday.”

Rinto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiroto Rin

“Tomorrow.”

Rinto Kiro

“Also yeah.”

Kiroto Rin

“I have nothing.”

Rinto Kiro

“You've known her for like five minutes.”

Kiroto Rin

“Longer than that.”

Rinto Kiro

“Not much longer.”

Kiroto Rin

“You're helping.”

Rinto Kiro

“Am I?”

Kiroto Rin

“Yes.”

Rin sighed dramatically.

Rinto Kiro

“Where are you?”

Twenty minutes later, Rin found Kiro outside a small shopping street.

Kiro was standing in front of a jewelry shop.

Not inside.

Just looking through the window.

Rin stopped beside him.

Rinto Kiro

“No.”

Kiro glanced over.

Kiroto Rin

“What?”

Rinto Kiro

“Whatever you're thinking.”

Kiroto Rin

“I'm not thinking anything.”

Rinto Kiro

“You called me because you needed help buying Susie a birthday present, and now you're staring at necklaces.”

Kiroto Rin

“I'm looking.”

Rinto Kiro

“Keep walking.”

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Rin

“I wasn't going to buy one.”

Rinto Kiro

“Good.”

They stared down the street.

Halloween decorations were everywhere now.

Plastic cobwebs stretched over signs.

Pumpkins outside cafés.

Orange lights wrapped around railings.

Kiro shoved his paws deeper into sleeves.

Kiroto Rin

“I just don't know what she'd actually want.”

Rin shrugged.

Rinto Kiro

“Then don't buy something huge.”

Kiroto Rin

“I'm not trying to.”

Rinto Kiro

“You look like you're trying to propose.”

Kiro stopped.

Kiroto Rin

“What the fuck?”

Rin smiled.

Rinto Kiro

“There he is.”

Kiroto Rin

“I'm serious.”

Rinto Kiro

“So am I.”

Kiroto Rin

“I'm buying her a birthday present.”

Rinto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiro started walking again.

Rin followed.

A camera shop appeared ahead.

Kiro looked toward the window.

Rin noticed.

Rinto Kiro

“Too obvious.”

Kiro shrugged.

Kiroto Rin

“I know.”

Rinto Kiro

“Good.”

Kiroto Rin

“Stop agreeing with me like you're helping.”

Rinto Kiro

“I'm helping.”

Kiroto Rin

“You're following me around insulting everything.”

Rinto Kiro

“Exactly.”

They passed the camera shop.

Then a bookstore.

Then a little place selling handmade jewelry and decorations.

Kiro picked up a small pendant.

Looked at it.

Put it back immediately.

Rin watched him.

Rinto Kiro

“You really care about getting this right.”

Kiro looked at him.

Kiroto Rin

“Obviously.”

Rin's mouth moved slightly.

Rinto Kiro

“Why obviously?”

Kiro frowned.

Kiroto Rin

“Because it's her birthday.”

Rinto Kiro

“That's not what I meant.”

Kiro knew.

He kept walking.

Rin stayed beside him.

After a few seconds, he said it.

Rinto Kiro

“You like her.”

Kiro's ears moved.

He didn't immediately tell Rin to fuck off.

That alone made Rin look at him differently.

Kiro stared ahead.

Wet pavement.

Orange lights.

People carrying shopping bags between them.

Finally he spoke.

Kiroto Rin

“She's my friend.”

Quiet.

Not defensive.

Just true.

Rin didn't joke.

Kiro almost wished he would.

He rubbed his thumb against the fabric covering his paw.

Kiroto Rin

“I don't call people that anymore unless I mean it.”

Rin looked at him.

Rinto Kiro

“I know.”

Kiro swallowed.

Kiroto Rin

“And I know I barely know her.”

Rinto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiroto Rin

“But...”

He stopped.

Susie staying when he broke down.

Susie sleeping beside him.

Her stupid snoring.

The forest.

The camera.

Her waiting while he tried to explain something he barely understood himself.

Kiro looked down.

Kiroto Rin

“She earned it.”

Rin was quiet for a moment.

Then nodded.

Rinto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiro glanced at him.

No smirk.

No joke.

That somehow made it worse.

Kiroto Rin

“Don't make this weird.”

Rinto Kiro

“I'm not.”

Kiroto Rin

“You have the face.”

Rinto Kiro

“What face?”

Kiroto Rin

“The face where you're about to say something.”

Rin took a breath.

Kiro immediately pointed at him.

Kiroto Rin

“Don't.”

Rin laughed.

Rinto Kiro

“Fine.”

They walked a few more steps.

Then Rin added:

Rinto Kiro

“For what it's worth, I wasn't asking whether she's your friend.”

Kiro looked at him.

Kiroto Rin

“...Fuck you.”

But Rin left it alone after that.

No more questions.

Kiro was grateful.

Mostly.

They entered another shop.

Second-hand this time.

Old mugs.

Books.

Clothes.

Small lamps.

Boxes filled with postcards and photographs from people neither of them knew.

Rin wandered toward some old electronics.

Kiro moved through the next aisle.

Then stopped.

A photo album set between a stack of old books and two empty picture frames.

Dark cover.

Slightly worn at the corners.

Nothing fancy.

Kiro picked it up.

Opened it.

Thick black pages.

Empty.

He turned around.

Then another.

Susie's room came back to him.

Pictures taped over pictures.

Boxes full of Polaroids.

Photos she liked enough to keep.

And one she had spent years slowly hiding beneath everything else.

Kiro ran a paw along one of the empty pages.

Rin appeared beside him.

Rinto Kiro

“That.”

Kiro looked over.

Kiroto Rin

“What?”

Rinto Kiro

“That one.”

Kiroto Rin

“You didn't even see it.”

Rinto Kiro

“I see an album.”

Kiroto Rin

“So?”

Rinto Kiro

“She takes photos.”

Kiro stared at him.

Rin pointed at the album.

Rinto Kiro

“You have spent an hour trying to find something that feels like her.”

A pause.

Rinto Kiro

“That feels like her.”

Kiro looked back down at it.

The pages were empty.

She could put whatever she wanted inside.

Leave out whatever she didn't.

Keep things visible.

Hide them.

Replace them.

Her choice.

Kiro closed the album.

Kiroto Rin

“...Yeah.”

Rin smiled slightly.

Rinto Kiro

“Finally.”

Kiroto Rin

“Don't celebrate yet.”

Rinto Kiro

“Oh, for fuck's sake.”

Kiro held the album against his chest.

His paw moved toward his pocket without thinking.

The Polaroid was still there.

The one Susie had taken of him near the railway tracks.

He could feel the edge of it through the fabric.

For a second, he thought about the empty pages.

Then stopped himself.

Not now.

It was her album.

Her photos.

Her choice.

Kiro moved his paw away.

Rin noticed the movement.

Rinto Kiro

“What?”

Kiroto Rin

“Nothing.”

Rinto Kiro

“You did something.”

Kiroto Rin

“I touched my pocket.”

Rinto Kiro

“Suspiciously.”

Kiro stared at him.

Kiroto Rin

“How the fuck do you touch a pocket suspiciously?”

Rin shrugged.

Rinto Kiro

“You managed.”

Kiro looked down at the album again.

Dark cover.

Empty pages.

Simple.

It felt right.

That was enough.

Kiroto Rin

“Does this look stupid?”

Rin sighed.

Rinto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Rin

“Too much?”

Rinto Kiro

“No.”

Kiroto Rin

“Too little?”

Rinto Kiro

“Kiro.”

Kiroto Rin

“What?”

Rinto Kiro

“Buy the fucking album.”

Kiro looked at him for another second.

Then nodded.

Kiroto Rin

“Fine.”

He started toward the register.

Halfway there, he glanced toward you.

Of course you were still there.

His eyes narrowed.

Kiroto Reader

“Don't.”

Rin followed his gaze toward absolutely nothing.

Then slowly looked back at him.

Rinto Kiro

“You're doing the invisible person thing again.”

Kiro tucked the album under his arm.

Kiroto Rin

“No. I'm not.”

Rinto Kiro

“You just threatened empty air.”

Kiroto Rin

“Can we buy this?”

Rin sighed.

Rinto Kiro

“Yeah.”

Kiro continued toward the register.

Behind him, Rin muttered:

Rinto Kiro

“Great worker. Functional adult. Threatens walls.”

Kiro raised his middle finger without turning around.

Rin laughed.

✶end of chapter 15✶
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